Really down

We went to the new neurologist with my dad today. We didn't get good news but we didn't get bad news. She thinks that there are a few different things it could be and she's being very proactive. Which is alot more than we got from the other dr.
The one thing she definately said is that he has slight dementia. One common misconseption is that dementia is the first sign of alzheimers disease, which isn't always true. It just basically means that you don't have the same memory that you used to. Not great news, but not horrible news. We know that my dad has a hard time remembering.
On to the atrophy... It may or may not be atrophy. It may be a big cyst, which is not good news! If it's a cyst then he has to have it removed. She really didn't want to go into all of that until she has a radiologist (who specializes in brains) take a look at the MRI. She may also have another MRI taken, and some blood work.
All in all, I am upset with the news, but I am happy with the way the dr. is treating this. The last dr. treated it as if my dad was just some old man!
We should find out in no longer than a week.

Things really haven't been going my way lately. I've been really down. It's like I've fallen in a hole and I can't crawl out. I just need a boost, something to go right in my life. I'm trying to think of all the good things in my life in order to make myself feel better. I have an awesome husband, who would do anything for me, I have a house, 2 beautiful dogs and a gorgeous cat, a job with people I love to work with, a family that loves me. Shouldn't that be enough? I don't know. I hope I start seeing the glass as half full again soon!

Dad

The few of you that actually read this blog may or may not know that my dad has been having some health issues. It all started out with a slight twitching his hands and has evolved into so much more. His hands are shaking pretty regularly now, pretty much all the time. He has a slight memory issue, he just can't rememberr things like he used to. He went and had an MRI done which showed some pretty extensive atrophy in the left temporal frontal lobe of his brain. In lamens terms, the left side of his brain is shrinking. We saw the neurologist immediately, who just shrugged it off as "aging." My dad is 53 years old, no 53 year old man should have significant atrophy in their brain. We've decided to get a second opinion. My dad goes in to another neurologist on May 17th.
I've been kind of a mess over all of this. My dad, is probably, the best dad in the world. He has taught me so much over the years. He has taught me to be an independant person. I know that I am the person that I am today because of him, and the way I was raised. I really don't know what I would do without him and the thought of it brings me to tears. I am trying to be optimistic about everything, but I just always feel that I will be set up for disappointment.
So, if anyone has any thoughts or prayers or information for me, I'll gladly take it.

Starting Over...

I've decided to start writing again. For myself. I don't think I have any readers anyway since it's been over a year since I've last written.
Scott and I moved to St. Peters in October 2009. I needed to be closer to work, and the city was just causing us to lose our minds.
We love our new house! We bought a 3 bedroom 2 bath ranch that is just perfect for us. Scott has made some upgrades, new harwood floors and a brand new bathroom. We'll be doing alot more, we just need to get our savings account up again before we start anything.
I'm doing alot better at work. I was having a hard time there for awhile, but it has gotten alot better over the past year or so. We have been very busy lately though. In order to keep the integrity of the business that I am in, I will not give out any details about work. I take alot of pride in what I do and I wouldn't want to compromise the privacy of the company or any families that we serve. It just wouldn't be ehtical for me to discuss any details of what I do on a daily basis and the majority of people wouldn't be able to handle it anyway!
I probably won't be posting many pictures on this blog, so those of you who do actually read this, will be reading most of the time. I won't have a "shoe of the week," column or "outfit of the day," column or anything ridiculous like that, so if that's what you're looking for you may want to keep on looking! I am writing to help myself gather thoughts and keep my mind clear.
I am going to try and write at least once a week hopefully more.
Here's to starting over!